Not Dead Yet!

I'm sitting outside writing this, a light cool breeze, mile high fluffy clouds, with an 8.7% Imperial Pilsner in my hand. Not a bad day. I think I'd like to start writing again, though it really isn't as much fun telling stories in an abandoned place by myself.  My friend that got me into blogging back before it was cool, I think,  is still blogging somewhere just for himself. I wish I was motivated to do that. I do love going back and reading stuff from when I was in a different time and place than I am now. I guess it's as close to a diary that a straight male can have. I guess I just enjoy(ed) the feedback. I think hearing what other people thought about what I was thinking gave me perspective on my own thoughts. Well, I need to get going,  I need to introduce some animal flesh to hardwood fueled fire before I catch too much of a shine from these horse tranquilizers that I'm imbibing in! Later Freaks!

Transmission

Here I am again little blog. A familiar story to be sure. Drunk, feeling a little off, and here. What have I got to say. Not sure yet. I did seem to make a pretty major change recently. One of the larger changes a person can make. I quit my job and took what I'm hoping is a better offer. Things had gotten pretty shitty at my former job. And a new opportunity presented itself. But I was really struggling, because the timing of the new oportunity would absolutly fuck my former employer, well more specifically, the fuckheads that were making my life suck at my former employer. I had to figure out if I really wanted to take the new job because it's what was best for me, or did I just want to fuck the assholes I used to work for. Still not sure which reason I took the new job. I suspect a bit of both. I'm hoping in the long run this is really what's best, but if not, I'm sure something else will present itself. It usually seems to. Though I'm hoping that this new venture does work out. A guy can dream I guess. And I've heard that sometimes good things happen to good people, so maybe good things can happen to an asshole like me too. Oh well, I guy can dream. I think it's time for another beer, and strangley I seem to have things I seem to want to share, and I just happen to have this fancy new computer thing too. If things get really crazy, I may even post a picture, we'll see, the ladies seem to get all crazy when I do that. I think I'm out of things to say tonight, Not as entertaining as my drunk posts usually are, but I seem to have drank myself sober, or is it drinked, or drunk? Who gives a shit, I'm not even going to do a spell check, so what do I care if there's gramatical errors! Later Freaks

Do You Believe In Father Christmas

 I know, it's been a long time. I've posted on a blog in some form or another since 2005 so I felt obligated to say something on here, though I really don't have much to say. It's too early in the day for even me to be drinking, so this post may not be as entertaining as some. 2020 has really kind of sucked for a lot of reasons,  though there have been some incredible bright spots as well. Here I am 15 years older than I was when I started putting my thoughts and feelings out here for anyone to read. In some ways I'm a completely different person than I was back then, and in some ways I'm exactly the same. I wish I were motivated to write more because I like going back to see where my head was at. And some of my writing entertains me too. But I do miss the interaction with other people on here, it was such a cross section of people, that the new social media just can't have. I'm not sure where I'm going with any of this, maybe it's just the holiday season making me feel a bit melancholy. I'm hoping the coming year goes a bit better, I'm hoping for the motivation to make some changes. And possibly the motivation to write here more often, though I've said that before.  Who knows. If anyone actually happens upon this post, have a Merry Christmas and I pray that you too find the motivation to make some positive changes in whatever you chose to do in the coming year. Later Freaks.

Crossroads

Have you ever looked back on a crossroads in your life and wondered if you took the wrong path? I wonder all the time if things would be easier,  or if I'd be happier if I'd have done things differently years ago. I'm guessing most people wonder about these things. I think I'm at a crossroads now, and things are as hazy and unclear as they were back then. Right now I'm wishing there was somebody out there, like there used to be, I could really use some guidance,  advice, or even some vague direction.  Yep, I'm drunk and watching sepia tone videos from the 90's. I'm depressed and wondering if this is really all there is. Don't worry. I'm not going to do anything drastic. I can tread water a really long fucking time. But maybe that's the real problem. Later Freaks

Does Anybody Know What Time It Is?....Does Anybody Really Care.......About Time?

Does anyone actually blog anymore? Does it matter? Not really, I guess. With no audience I don't really have to worry about spelling errors now. So, what's new with me...... I just signed up for another marathon. If I finish it'll be my seventh. That is, if I can keep from injuring my friggin calf in the next 9 months. Other than that, not much new with me. I'm older, I now have no living parents. Which I guess is the natural order of things, but it's still a little weird. I still have questions. I guess they'll get answered soon enough. There's days I think I'll start writing here again, it's therapeutic. Clears my head, and quite often amuses me when I read it after I've written during a night of drinking. I probably won't, start writing again, that is. I used to be able to write at work when I was slow, but I can't anymore. But who knows. I tried to read some of the blogs I used to, but most are gone or just left abandoned. The last post probably the day before they found the book of faces, which I still will not partake of. So if you want to talk to me you just have to buy me a barley pop. Though if anyone is still out there, leave a comment, let me know if you're still writing. I'm not promising I'll write any more, but who knows. Later Freaks.

"Wicked Game" or some shit like that.............

Hey kids, it's been a while. I was pretty surprised when I actually remembered the login and password for my blog. Honestly, I had a big post about music earlier. I was going to talk about how the formulaic approach is killing music today, how you need to find the voice that speaks to you, how artists like Dylan would never have been heard if they would have had to make it through 10 rounds of judging. But then I thought, shut the fuck up you pompous jackass!  Yes, I've been drinking. Yes, I'm a little depressed, and yes, that usually means I've looked up every artist that's ever recorded the song "Wicked Game". What I need you to do now, is to type that song title into whatever music search engine you prefer and find the voice that speaks to you. For me it's Lana Del Rey, really, look it up, it'll give you fucking goosebumps on top of goosebumps. And yes, if you're a little drunk, and a little depressed, you may want to put a bullet in your temple, but don't worry, I probably won't. But I now understand why so many men my age do. But that's a post for another day. I'm talking about music today, or am I? Hard to say, been drinking for quite some time. You know who else has a pretty spectacular version of "Wicked Game"? Pink, I don't think it's ever been published, but not surprising, her voice is pretty incredible. Then there's the countless metal versions, and yes they kick ass! "Him" I think they're Swedish, is one of the more kick ass versions. But I have to admit, my absolute favorite, or for you Canadians, favourite, is still the original. The Chris Isaac version, the classic. I don't know what it is about it. Helena Christensen in men's underpants. Or if it was the girl that I was with when the song came out. It really fit where I was in my life at that time. Maybe that's why a certain song sticks with you, why it hits you that deep. I won't ever admit it but I tear up every time I hear it. I'm not sure if it's where I was, who I was with, or the fact that I never did live up to what I thought I'd be by now. Oh well, time to fix spelling errors and grab another beer, or two, or three, or whatever. Later Freaks.

I miss the days when my life was mine.

Spaceship Superstar!

It's been so long since I've been  here I couldn't even remember the email account I use for this blog! I can get here on my phone but I hate typing on that thing. I think that may be behind the demise of the blog. People don't want to write more than 140 characters on their phones. I miss it. I still haven't signed up for the book of faces, don't think I ever will. Nothing really there for me. I prefer blogging, though you wouldn't be able to tell from reading it lately. I have to admit, I've been here, but I just haven't written anything. It's funny, in my heyday of blogging, I would have killed to have the access to the interwebs that I do now. I have 6 Gigabytes of of 4G access right from my phone, it's incredibly easy to post pics at any time. It's funny how things change. There are days where I think, "I should blog about that!" But I just never do anymore. Well, maybe you'll see more of me on here, I"m not making any promises. One thing's for sure, you won't see me on the book of faces! Well not officially at least, I have a fake profile, but that's just so I can go to music pages and download free stuff. Oh, by the way, I'm not even drunk. Now I'm off to see what happens when I hit the "Next Blog" button! Later Freaks!

Is There Anybody Out There...

Looks like this thing is still on. I think I may have something to say again.

There's no such thing as fairy tales, no such thing as happy endings. At least not for me. I have my suspicions as to why. I've got beer though.
Later freaks.

My View Today

Looks like I can post a pic I've just taken, just not one I have stored on my phone. Oh well, the tasteful nekkids will have to wait for another day!

This Is Only a Test!

My blogger app doesn't seem to want to let me post pictures, let see if it let's me post without pictures!

I really wanted to do a good post with pictures tonight, but now I'm out of beer and feeling really lazy! I don't think it's going to happen anymore. I wasn't going to post any tasteful nekkids or anything, or even distasteful nekkids. Maybe another day. Later Y'all.

Hey Y'all

I like beer!

Look Ma!! No Beer!!!

First off, I just want to let everyone know that I'm not drunk! I haven't even been drinking! It seems lately that I only post when I'm drunk. It's not that I'm drunk all the time, I just happen to post when I happen to be drunk. Some people smoke when they're drunk, I post to my blog! Just not today.
I realized today that it was 10 years this month that I started blogging! It really doest feel that long. It's been a few different blogs since then, but I've been blogging in some form or another since December of 2004. I think there's only a couple people that would even remember my first blog. I had to delete it for privacy reasons. It's funny, I was thinking about how much I miss some of those people from early on, things have definitely changed. I never did meet anyone from then in person so it seems weird that I'd miss them. But I do. Oh well, things change.
Lastly, have a good holiday! Merry Christmas to all of you who celebrate it! Be sure to take some time and be with people you enjoy being with.
I have some time off through the holidays so there may even be another post from me! I'll probably be drunk though!

Not sure why, but I've been a bit down lately. It's not the holidays, they don't really depress me. I'm not really sure what it is. I think the best way to describe it is that I feel insignificant. I'm not sure where im going with this so I guess I'm going to stop while I'm ahead and just end this here. Yep, been drinking. Later y'all.

Burt and Boners!

I'm drunk and have lots to say, I just don't feel like writing tonight. I probably should since I actually have the time, and a computer right here on my lap. But there is a really bad Burt Reynolds movie on tv right now. I don't even know the name of it, but he's playing a private detective, which I think is what he plays in every movie he was in during the 70's. If I was really smart I'd just go to bed, but I know I'm probably going to end up watching the rest of this shitty movie. Either way I need to go get more beer out of the fridge in the basement. I'm trying to decide if I should hit publish before or after I get more beer. You're in luck, I have a fresh supply of beer, though now I don't remember what the hell was important enough to actually find the laptop power supply and log in to blogger for. Oh well, y'all missed me! and here I am. I'd post a picture but that would involve finding my camera and batteries or going and getting my phone. And well, I don't want to miss any of this kick ass Burt Reynolds movie! It seems that there's a ton of ads for boner pills on during this movie. I'm not sure if they're targeting me, but I don't need the boner meds. In fact I may need the opposite. And as for that erection lasting for more than 4 hours I probably should have gotten medical attention all through high school. But I digress. What the hell was I talking about? I wonder if that was a rug on Burt way back then or if it was just a really bad hairdo? Looks like a rug. Now I'm starting to get hungry, I really want some good smoked beef brisket, but I don't have 12 hours to wait, I guess I'll have to settle for pretzels. I think I'm going too end this post. This is about as much suckatude as I should subject anyone to. I think the movie is finally over, I'm not sure what the hell happened, but I just saw that the cute blonde that Burt was sexing up was a very young Dyan Canon. Damn, she was a good looking woman! Actually I think she still is. I really should turn off the tv, but another movie just started, and it's got Sean Connery, a hot young Dyan Canon, and an extremely young Christopher Walken! I think it's his first movie. Yeah, I don't need any boner pills with a young Dyan Canon on the television! Later Freaks!

I've Got The Runs!

I feel like drinking beer tonight, I know, quite a shock. Its only Wednesday but I've already had a long shitty week. Work has sucked, home has sucked, and I need to get shined up! I think a good whiskey buzz might fix things up even better than beer! I did go for a good run this morning. The temp was perfect, though it doesn't get too hot before the sun comes up! I got my 6 miles in before 5:30am. Running clears my head, and there's no hangover. Maybe I should run more and drink less........ Nah, beer and whiskey are a lot of fun! Though I 'spouse I may do both in excess at times.  In less than a month I'll be running my sixth marathon. You really get to thinking about some heavy shit when you run that far. Oh well, I don't have enough beer in the house to have any fun anyway so I should just go to bed now.

I like beer and tacos and

Yes, I'll admit it, I've been drinking! But that's not the only reason I'm posting tonight. Long pause, yeah, actually it is! I took a long hot shower tonight. I'm not just saying that because the visual is totally hot, or maybe kinda lukewarm if you're into old guys that are kinda in shape. I'm mentioning it because for the last week my hot water heater has been only working when it wanted to. Last night I attempted to take a shower with absolutely no hot water. That sucked kind of a lot. It started out cool and finished up fucking cold as hell! I may not have rinsed all my naughty bits as well as I should have! Well I took care of that tonight! Yeah, kick ass visual of mildly good looking old guy rinsing his junk! I say old guy because my birthday was Wednesday! Yeah, I got to work late and then fell asleep on the couch. Hell of a birthday! I didn't even get tacos or a blowjob! Livin' the fucking dream I tell ya. I believe my beer is empty and I'm having a really hard time typing tonight so I should probably wrap this thing up.

Reminiscing, Glad I Have Autocorrect Because I Had No Idea How To Spell Reminiscing! I Still Think It Looks Misspelled!

I should start writing here again. I mean really writing, letting the shit out of my head. I was rereading posts from a long forgotten blog of mine and I miss the outlet I used to have. I would post anything. But people fucked it up, people always do. But without interaction, for me at least, blogging doesn't work. There used to be people that "got" it. I'm not sure where they all went. I guess they're on that book of faces, but you don't meet anyone new on there. That's just a place to brag about how you're better than everyone else and to argue with family and friends about politics and shit. I guess that's why I'm not on there. Well I should really be getting to bed, I have to be up in 3 hours. Later y'all.